Some times we act like a duck

last year, when i was digging up my flower garden on the side of our house to get ready to put some plants in, I dug up a HUGE egg....I had no idea what kind of creature layed an egg that big, thought it might be a snake....I called various wildlife rescue places and they said that judging by the size, color, it was probably a duck egg.... and that the mother had probably abandoned it. Now I'm sure she may have thought it was a good place to lay an egg, being so close to our pond in the back yard and all...but I think when she realized that this property wasn't so excellent
to raise a youngin, because of the two very active,vocal dogs that live here, she flew the coop, so to speak.....
so feeling somewhat responsible for the little orphan, I put the egg under lights and waited and watched....and waited....until
I realized, after again talking to more wildlife experts, that my attempt to save this baby duckling had not been successful....
Everyone said to just throw the egg out.
I was tempted to crack it open and see exactly what was inside, but decided to give
the little critter some dignity and a semi-proper "burial". I wrapped it in tissues and placed it gently into a bag and put it in the garbage....

Last week, I couldn't believe my eyes....there was a duck walking in my side yard...and it sure looked like it was casing out the joint....
Today I looked out the window and there it was again, by our pine tree.....and I thought, how stupid, it didn't work last time, why are you even considering coming back and nesting here.....

then I thought, don't we humans do the same thing sometimes?....we either do something one way that doesn't work, or find ourselves in situations, by our own making or not, that are not healthy/productive.....but yet, we go back to doing the same thing over again, or back to the situation where nothing has changed.... and expect different results. Are we lured by the great looking pond....or that wolve in sheep clothing, or are we just optimists that think things will be better this time around.....

they say insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results......but there is something about persistence, and not giving up....

I don't know....I guess we just have to pray for wisdom to know the difference and
hope that, like that duckling, it's not a matter of life and death.

gosh....He didn't even give me a day before He corrected me....

We went to a worship/prayer regional meeting tonight, where
a lot of people from different churches come together to worship/
pray for our communities/state/nation.....it was awesome!

And during the worship, The Lord kept saying to me.....what you
said is ok for you, EXCEPT, there are times when
you have to step totally out of the boat, into the water.... when I speak to you
to do something specific, and you know that the timing is now.....
for example, for me,
stepping out and praying for people to be healed....Now, I can still start small, say
like on a wed. nite....as opposed to renting Rich Stadium and having a
healing crusade.....but I still need to step out of the boat (my comfort
zone) completely and trust Him. He reminded me, the sea didn't part
until Moses stepped into it....(i still have to look that one up)....
that if He calls me to do something....all I have to do is be obedient,
have faith in Him, and just do it! because it's not about me, it's about
Him choosing to work through me....or not....But that's His call, not
mine....I'm just called to pray.......

i was thinking how we decide to start a diet, or read the word more,
or exercise...and then the next thing you know, we've blown the diet,
exercised for two days and quit....and didn't read the bible as long as we
wanted to.....so we get discouraged and stop altogether.....

I have decided that I am going to ease myself into things..
for instance....i am a terrible nail biter....so i started with not
biting three nails, then five, then eight.....right now I am, and
have been for a couple ofmonths, still biting two nails...I can't seem to
stop completely, but although it looks extremely stupid, I am
not giving up because I can't stop biting all of them, I will have
ten finger nails growing some time in the future!

To get my flesh under control I decided to fast....now that's an
area where I really have trouble.....So I have been not eating after
7:00 p.m. Mon - Thurs. Everyother day is the same....Now some might
think that is silly....but I think, even a little is better than nothing....and
boy, there are many times i want to break this fast, but knowing in a few
days, I will be off it....and that I am doing something for the Lord, however
small, encourages me to go on.

For me, it applies to alot of things I desire to do...like exercise and reading
the bible more......starting out with baby steps seems to be the way for me
to go......read one more chapter a day, dance to a song, walk up the stairs
once instead of taking the elevator..


Some people can get out of the boat and walk on water....and that is my
ultimate goal....

but right now....I'm just putting my right foot in......
and I think He's ok with that....

Do not despise these small beginnings, for the Lord rejoices to see the work begin." (Zechariah 4:10 NLT)

you know we pray.....Lord speak to me, use me....
and then we get woken up during the night and
hear His voice saying...get up and pray....and
you're so tired, so you lay there and say a short
prayer and go back to sleep......
God forgive me for letting this flesh get in the
way of what you are calling me to do....thank
you ..that you never give up on us....you forgive
over and over......and that you equip us with everything
we need to do that thing you are calling us to do.....

sometimes our friends push us to do things that are out of our comfort zone...
and though we may resist, and maybe even get a little angry.....
We should be thankful that they care about us enough to push us to another level
of personal growth.....and that they believe in us....

today I posted on facebook that I am tired of being tired....although, true...the Lord reminded me that His strength is made perfect in our weakness....
I am so thankful I have given Him my life and can trust Him completely.....

Saturday

this is my first post.....